I'm thinking already, I'm not ready

I'm thinking already, I'm not ready to get married now
I know you are angry and hate me.
But for me, I love you always.
I know that from now on, you will not contact me again.
But please know that I love you.
If any day you come to Thailand.
Please come visit me some. Everyone around me do not agree that we are married. We have never come across before.. Family I would like us to be more known .. Everyone does not want us to divorce after living together for a few years.