I can't have what i want. What i wa

I can't have what i want. What i want... Is for us to be able to actually see each other and touch eachother and talk face to face. And we cant have that and it hurts me so fucking much. Im scared to get attached to people anynore. Especially people so far. I do love you and this is just all too painful. I feel too much. I cant be in a relationship and be without that person physically. I need your presence. And its killing me. Its making me distracted from my life . i cant focus on "now".