I have always been honest to you, a

I have always been honest to you, and you know that if we are together now, you would still be sad because we can not be together. This year i will not go to thailand, so then we can not see eachother for two years. Do you think it is good to love somebody without seeing eachother for more than two years every time?

Is okay for me if you ignore me because i am honest with you, it will only teach me that you actually don't want to hear the truth. I hoped we could be friends, but i don't want to have a friend who ignores me.