I want to cry now , you don't rep

  I want to cry now , you don't reply to me again. But I will to do i promised you.
  More about me.my name is phiraya thanatechakit.I work at Bank of the government in Thailand. I am a widow because my husband cheated on me.I have 2 daughters .my first daughter  is 14 year old and my second daughter is 11 year old.
   I live close to my office( Bank) Monday to Friday  alone. and Saturday and Sunday  return to live with my daughters at husband' s house.
     I have no relationship with my husband more than  3 year. Because I know that he has another woman. And he knew that I did not love him, since the first time.
     I don't know how to begin,
I married at the age of 26 year old.my husband is the same work. He was 5 years younger than me, he is not my boyfriend. I stay alone in my office house. Weekend he volunteer as friend. I saw that he was younger and a good kid.he attacked me and told me he love me so long but I have a boyfriends. I chose to married with him because I  slept with him.he never accepted with  me that he have another woman,I divorced him, But he is nobody like me.
there are men have a wife trying to sleep with me because they know I' m a widow. Not responsible for anything to do with me , but i think it is an insult to me. some of them are friend with my husband.
I thinks if I new marry, my husband will be new marry like me.he will be happy in his life.