I feel like I have hurt the most important person in the world to me. I don't know what to do. I can't fix it. I love you I need you to know that. I am so sorry for acting like I did. You deserve someone that will never hurt you. You deserve better then me. You are way to good for me. Your life is so valuable and it is a privilege I don't deserve to be close to you. I don't want you ever to feel like this because of me. If you are sick I understand and I will help you as much as you want me to. I still want more then anything in the world for you to come here and be with me. We can wait and do your visa again whenever it feels right for you. I will give you whatever you want or need. Nothing is as important as your love and happiness.