I’ve just gotten into the KPop fand

I’ve just gotten into the KPop fandom and I feel really awkward, yes I love the music and it has also opened my eyes to a brand new culture but I feel so stupid more than half the time. I’ve tried to learn the names of different people in different groups, and how to tell them apart and stuff like that but it really makes me feel stupid when somebody can go like, “That’s Lay!”, “That’s Kris!”, “That’s Baro!”, “That’s Jessica!”, “That’s Kyrstal!”, and all that stuff and I’ll just be sitting there like, “What? Who? Where?”. I have terrible memory to, so when I try to remember the names of people I try to start small but even then I feel like a failure, I then tried to remember them by their voices and it sort of worked but then it go to the point where I still couldn’t tell their faces apart or the names apart. I feel so stupid and I feel so scared to talk to another person who is more into the KPop fandom than me because I feel so worried that they may belittle me or make me feel worst than how I felt before,like I’m also in the Anime fandom and the JPop fandom and I love helping people to the best of my abilities because some of the people in those fandoms are just plain rude to the new comers, but I just wished I were like everybody else, they all seem to know who is who and how to pronounce everything, I just feel like I don’t belong :( Thank you so much for reading this, I probably got on your nerves with this :(